What is it about this child that I just can't get enough of?! Now- don't get me wrong- I definitely love both of my children equally- everything about them and their little personalities (or BIG personalities as I'm beginning to see with Miles!) But with Mr. Owen I am finding myself more and more protective feeling than I was with Miles at this point (the 6 month mark). I am not "trying" to get Owen to do things (crawl, pull up, etc...) It's not that I don't want him to, it's just that I think with this one, I realize how quickly all those milestones come, and once they're here- they're gone just as fast and there's no returning to the days of having your baby be, well, a baby! I think I am feeling more and more comfortable in this new skin of "mom", also. Just for a reminder- with Miles, we had just moved into our home (out of my parent's house). So for the entire pregnancy with Miles and the first 6 months of his life- I had my mom right there and all the extra hands I needed at any given moment! Now- it is all me---don't get me wrong- I have all the help I need or want (or don't want...HA! {just kidding mama}) with both sets of parents living within a 10 mile straight line-- but, still- it's all on me to make sure they're bathed, fed, nurtured, don't watch too much tv, read to, loved, etc., etc., etc.
this.is.the.best.feeling.
This morning after my quiet time (not trying to get "holier than thou" on this one-- believe me this is a consistent struggle in my life) I was staring at Owen and all of a sudden I felt this overwhelming love from God and realized that as much as I love my children and have a desire to protect them and love them- my Lord has that much MORE love for me...it was almost a pinnacle perception---one that so many others have, but for me it was a completely fresh, new blessing for me today. Thank you Lord that even when I'm in a downright rut, You show me new ways that You love me. So today, my challenge to you (which came from the Lord through Proverbs 31 Ministries) is to not believe the lies that hold us captive in our ruts--- believe me- I've been in one- a self-defeating, pity-party, this isn't how I expected life to be kind of rut...
...we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." 2 Corinthians 10:5
blessings and love to ya'll today!
